[Sundreme]

I feel sadder today than yesterday. Yesterday the feeling of loss was real but it was tempered by shock. Today as that shock fades, the saddness grows, as I come to terms with the fact that Terry is really gone. I do not want this to be true. Its not right that there should be a world without Terry Clements.

I have so many nice memories of him through the years, including the one I mentioned where he asked Barry H. if I could come backstage after the show. When I did come back, he acted so happy to see me.
But the best memory I have was in Toronto in 1999. I was in town with many of my fellow Lightheads for the Massey Hall gig. Some of us spotted Terry walking down the street. I went up to him and told him of our previous meetings and how much I appreciated his kindness. He smiled, those blue eyes of his lit up as he opened his arms and enveloped me in the warmest hug ever.

Many of you know I used to be vastly overweight and not too many guys or people in general acted thrilled to see me, so that hug was extra special. Gord has also treated me wonderfully over the years.

I've lost most of the weight as some of you know and now people treat me differently, but I will always be grateful to GL and to Terry for their sweetness towards me. I'm glad that I got to thank Terry that one time those many years ago in Toronto, but I was still heavy back then and now that I've lost the weight, I had wished to meet Gord and Terry one more time to let them know how much those joy those brief moments gave me.

Maybe I'll still get the chance with Gord, but it hurts to know that will never happen with Terry. So I'll just send my vibes out to the universe and hope that where ever he is he gets them. So thank you Terry for making this one time fat girl feel pretty and special.
Love and Hugs,
Erica