Well,the only time I am ugly inside is when someone makes me soooooo angry I just can't keep my cool any longer.
I don't get violent but I sure get loud! :D LOL!
Heck,I feel bad when I have to swat a fly or terminate an insect that's crawled into my apt. .
Don't worry,I've changed very much in the last decade but I'll always basically be one of the good guys.