Watchman,
You know, I did re-read my posts to you above. I looked for any signs of forked-tongue words that could be innocently misintepreted by you as such, and see by and large, frankly, a preponderance of an eggregiously groveling attempt to make friends with you. I am sorry - that must have sounded disingenuous.
I can see your point about the "little darts here and there...sorta..", but I thought you spoke of not being too fragile. I am however very sorry if I hurt your feelings.
Please make no mistake I am being genuine, and trying very hard to be on a friendly basis. And, that does mean putting some old wounds to healing for both of us. Let's call it , on both our parts, a well-meant misunderstanding of one another.
I am surprised after all these attempts I have made, you would still comment on my typing gettng worse. I am sorry - I got back from a very difficult day of physical rehabilitation today.
Neurologically I have a ways to go. But, I'll take my licks like a man, it's cool. I am not angry, I am just a little too old and the bark's peeling here and there too much !
I personally know I am being genuine and trying to be a stand-up guy, after 26 years of faithful marriage, and a beautiful 24 year old daughter who is about to marry a great guy, and a career I love. Can't wait for the Doc to say go back, OK !
I am "back" enough to see I have embarrassed myself by offering my hand in friendship, depite the little flotsam and jetsam of advice for you. That comes a bit with age. Its called referential respect. But I can see you are not open to it. I am open to yours; this final response being evidence.
I will endeavour to consider your thoughts. But, please let US not overestimate our respective impacts.
I am quite relaxed, It is interesting you corrolate that with my typing gettinh worse. That is whats called a spurious corrolation. aka aint got nothin' to do with it.
But thank you, because I am really trying to improve my written communications before i return to work; this helps. You are to be commended for your kind assistance in pointing it out ! You know, the way in martial arts, when you get hit, and say "thank you" - for exposing the others flaw in form by being hit.
You know, Watchman, I'll bet if you and I were to sit down and comapre notes on life,love, religion, and all, we'd probably be surprised what great thoughts and dreams we share !
But I am , again, "back" enough to see rather ,....clearly... that you'd rather not let it all go, with regard to our abortive attempt to be friendly posters to one another. You need not say more.
Should you decide to stay in the room, you can count on anytime you wish to post to me, you can count on barbless wire on the range.
Maybe sometime we can call one another friend, but I think it won't kill either one of us to not make it today. I wish we could be though.
I really do think you made several fair points historically and presently here and there; all a matter of degree and perception seemingly making the difference. You seem slow to trust - thats probably good. Quick friends we both know are short time friends, usually.
Unequivocably this time, tongue all in one piece
(no forks !) - peace be with you Watchman - I truly hope that which troubles you with regard to the room - I know nothing of these conspiracies and PM's, and other things in life if any that trouble you (and who doesn't) - be comforted by your faith - I do not judge you. I just still think you are a good guy on many right tracks. I hope these "train tracks" converge and coalesce into what you want.
- Steve